The Surgery, or whatever I remember of it…

Sorry – while I wrote this post many weeks ago, I never got around to posting it. This is my best recollection of my surgery that took place on April 1st, 2014.

The day of diagnosis, we went to meet a surgeon that was recommended to us by my pediatrician. This was within a few hours of us learning the diagnosis, so things were still not so clear. To be honest, once Dr. Myseros took a look at the CT Scan and confirmed the diagnosis and the need for surgery, he freaked me out with the talk about all of the potential things that could happen as a result of this complex surgery but I knew he had to get all of that information out of the way. My parents, who were also stunned by all of the info, were at least reassured that this surgeon would be upfront and honest with us and I also felt that I would rather have someone like that open my brain for a 6 hour surgery.

Even though it was a tough meeting, we really liked this surgeon but my parents wanted a second opinion. Dr. Myseros was very understanding and even gave my parents a few names. He also said that while surgery was absolutely necessary, I was doing well enough to wait a few days. So a couple of days later, we made a day trip to another hospital to meet a top surgeon dealing with my diagnosis, but right away I thought that Dr. Myseros was more focused and upfront with me. The final strike in my head was when that surgeon started texting on his phone while I was talking, so in my head I knew I wanted to go with Dr. Myseros. My parents and I then talked… and talked… and we found an IHOP and had chocolate chip pancakes and talked over that too! Finally I said that I wanted to go with Dr. Myseros and didn’t want to talk about it anymore. I was hoping that my vote would be pretty valuable since it was my brain after all! Of course, my parents listened to me and said that was their gut feeling as well and the decision was made.

As we reached home I saw that two of my uncles had just arrived from California and Ohio and I was so excited. Right away we went outside and started shooting hoops with them and my brother. I really didn’t want to start a game or anything because both of my uncles are like 10 ft. tall! (OK they are 6’ 5’’ or something to be exact). As we were playing, my mom came outside and told me that they already called the hospital to confirm things and I was going to have surgery with Dr. Myseros the next day at INOVA Fairfax! I really wasn’t ready for surgery the next day and I was crazy nervous but my dad told me that I wasn’t going to be more ready for brain surgery just with a few more days. I knew he was right and I knew that it was the right thing to do and I should just go and get it out of the way. Of course I didn’t know how long I was going to stay in the hospital after surgery because I had no prior experience! But, I was thinking that I would be in the hospital for a week, recover, and be back to school the next Friday. And, that is what I told my friends and my teachers! (Little did I know!)

Basketball before surgery

I went to sleep that night, not being able to think about anything other than surgery the next morning. I woke up bright and early the next morning, took a shower, and came downstairs to find many people waiting to see me before I went to the hospital. Other than my parents and my two uncles, a couple of our close family friends were there to greet me. I went in my uncle’s car and rode with my parents. So many things were going on in my head that I just wanted to get the surgery over with. My stomach was also growling because I wasn’t allowed to eat or drink anything for 12 hours before my surgery. After we reached the hospital, my parents checked me in and we waited. For me, it felt like an endless wait but we were called by the receptionist in about 15 minutes. We right away went to the back where there were many nurses and doctors and I could see the doorway to my operating room. I got all of my vital signs checked (weight, blood pressure, temperature, etc.). I went into a room and changed into a gown and waited with my parents.

I could hear Dr. Myseros outside annoyed at someone who was not ready on time. That sound of his voice totally in command reassured me that I was in good hands. An anesthesiologist then visited me to go over the procedure. (It happened that he was a colleague of a close friend of ours and he was super friendly!) He asked me whether I wanted to fall asleep by breathing into a scented mask or to have an IV line go through me and give me a medicine. I knew that I was going to have many IV lines in me after surgery so I decided to just go with a mask. He then asked me what flavor I wanted the mask to be coated with. I listened to all of the flavors and thought hard. (This was my important decisionJ) I thought of my favorite drink, Shirley Temple, and wanted to go to sleep with that smell. I chose cherry for my flavor and the doctor gave me the mask and a cloth to wipe in it and add the flavor. Finally, the nurse who was going to wheel me into the operating room came and asked me if I wanted one of my parents in the room with me before I fell asleep. I asked if my dad could come and he had to wear a sterilized gown as he followed me into the room. This was the first time I saw a real operating room. In the middle was a tiny bed for me and above that were all those lights and instruments. And there were at least six or seven people in the room getting ready to work on me. But very quickly they put me on the table and had me breathing into the mask. As I was waiting to fall asleep with my dad beside me, a nurse asked me about my favorite sport, tennis. She asked, “What part of the body do you use the most to have a good serve?” I answered with, “Your legs.” She then asked, “Why do you need to use your legs?” I replied, “The power would come from your legs because…” And that is all I remember.

About eight hours later, I got wheeled to a recovery room where my parents met me before being moved into the pediatric intensive care unit. I don’t really remember any of that. After a couple of days, I got moved to the Oncology section where I remember many of our family and friends coming to visit and drop of gifts and flowers and get well soon cards. Knowing everybody was behind me made me feel as good as I could in bed. But then for the next few days I was really messed up with lots of headaches and complications that I don’t really remember (including an emergency late night procedure that Dr. Myseros came in to do that I have no recollection of) which is not a bad thing! But my parents told me that Dr. Myseros and the staff there were just amazing and helped me through all of that. The final thing I remember was when Dr. Myseros came to remove a temporary shunt in my head – and I didn’t have any anesthesia for that! And he let me help him through that minor procedure by asking me to put my finger on the spot where he had drilled a hole before he stitched it up!

PICU

After 12 days in the hospital, I got discharged and went home. I was sent with a walker as I couldn’t walk well independently but I quickly transitioned out of it at home. My aunt and cousins from India were there to visit and took care of me so well and were the best!

As I still had a full head of hair then, I fast forward (as I now don’t have much hair) to a recent visit with my surgeon. Dr. Myseros looked at my bald head and said, “Don’t worry, God made some heads perfect, he put hair on the rest!” Hmm…I will go with that for now!

Picture with surgeonWith Dr. Myseros

 

11 thoughts on “The Surgery, or whatever I remember of it…

  1. This was inspiring and amazing how well you described it! You are in my prayers. We will see you again soon!!! -Shashi

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  2. best wishes to you nitin. Words are the best way to put down your feelings. You are a sweet, string kid and wishing you the very best in life

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  3. Dear Nitin,

    You may not know me, but I know you through your paati, Seetha Raghavan. I remember seeing you as a little boy in Mentor, Ohio in your Uncle-Sundar mama’s house. My name is Uma, and I have always heard great things about you through seetha paati and Sundar mama ( that is how my son, Prithvi calls them).

    You are such a great role model for all the youngsters in the world. You narration moved me…brought me to tears…tears of inspiration, faith and courage. You are an image of power of positivity. The strength you have executed in understanding the problems and solving them with a cool head-inspite of all the uncertainties and unfamiliar situation, shows us all what a great mind you have.

    I love your family, and I wish I was there to offer my assistance of any magnitude during this trying time, but someone told me once, that the best help that can be offered to your friends and family is by praying for them, and thinking positive thoughts for them. You are in my prayers, all the time. Just like your Surgeon said, ” God made some heads perfect..”…You are a perfect one, Nitin. You are in God’s perfect hands, so just keep thinking positively. You are, and will be a great inspiration and ambassador to this generation. We need young men like you. Stay Strong, Nitin…and keep cooking…I love to cook and bake, but Iam rather better in the former…working on polishing my baking skills…so keep posting those savory. mouth watering dishes you are baking…You are inspiring me again…

    We love you, Nitin.

    Big Hugs,

    Uma, Kumaran and Prithvi. ( sunny california..:))

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  4. Hi Nitin, i cannot beleive how well you have captured your thoughts through these very tough times. You talk about your uncles being 10 ft tall, i think it is you who is it :). I take a bow to your courage! Well done kiddo and like your doc said, you are a special creation.

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  5. Nitin,

    Reading through this and learning about your journey has been incredibly moving, humbling, and inspiring. You are so, so strong and such a remarkable person. Reading about your experiences makes me wish so much that I could be there with you along the way. Keep writing, keep being the amazing, driven, motivated, positive young man you are. I am so proud to know you, and I am thinking of you every day! Can’t wait to bake together again soon 🙂

    Preeti

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  6. Hi Nitin!

    I am sorry, you do not know me, but I happened to stumble across your blog. After reading all your entries, I have come to the conclusion that you are really an amazing person. And not only are you more brave now then I will ever be, but your writing is exceptional! Your surgeon seems super enjoyable and really humorous, and you are too!

    I know that it probably is really creepy for me to comment on this while you don’t know me, but I really couldn’t help it, I just had to! Are are really a super cool person 😀

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  7. Dear Nitin,

    Over the past year, we have all had you in our thoughts and prayers and this blog shows just what a spectacular kid you are. Thank you for sharing this with us, and for taking us along with you.

    Your writing is just brilliant. I know writing down your thoughts as you go along is cathartic, a record of what you’ve been through, and a way to process all of that. And, it gives us all a glimpse into how tough it has been, how bravely your parents, brother and you have handled it.

    Did I say your writing is brilliant? It is. And, if you ever take to writing fiction, I suspect you’re going to give me some competition! 🙂

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